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2006-02-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

finally... im done wif e projects. i din do anything for fat santa. no time. shall go and get her sumting later.

sunday i had migrain. i almost died. i vomited 4 times. i was so shagged till i just kneel on e ground lay my head on e toilet bowl. baby got to dragged mi out of e loo. but she's so nice, helped mi to massage till i feel better. she din really slp much. poor ger...

exams r coming... sigh... and im graduating.

i love school.

dying...

2006-02-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

i haf so much work to do. SM report by fri, marcomm by mon, and mr by mon too. and e prob is i dunno where n how to start. sumbody just kill mi pls...

and now im just playing e icon game wif dat dumb chong. we are lyk competing see who has got e most icons. i swear she must be damn free and has nothing to do at hm and dl all e icons.

anyway cny was ok. lots of food and ang baos. and e stupid steph n her stupid sis just kept laughing at mi gg to river ang bao. but it was really boring lar.

and nana just called to say she's single. wat news can be bigger den dat? she's attached to clariss for 3 yrs!!!! and she claimed dat she was suffering. orh bi! who ask her not to choose mi e other time. all dat tiong seekee's fault for being a mad bitch. haha... bet u must angry lyk mad wen u read this seek. haha...

im gg bangkok on 10th march! n fat santa's gg chiangmai on dunno wen. leaving mi on my own to celebrate my bday. u better call mi on my bday to sing mi a bday song alrite!

2006-01-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

i'm really bored thou i haf tons of work waiting for mi to complete. things seemed to be unfinished. dunno where to start from. perhaps haf to get started aft cny.

anyway, i had got my ny clothes already. not really new as i already wore it for ibs n e skirt i got it from fat santa.

updates... fri. din go to sch cos was too tired. dawn din wan to go so i juts pon as well. went to pick fat santa up. den to her place to eat yummy chicken rice.

den bk to her place to see sum funny drama. there's always drama series gg on in her hse cos she n her bro always go aft their mum for mummy lyk loan shark. if she doesnt gif, she can goes to work cos they will guard e gate. -laughs-

sat... went to cut hair at airport wif mum and e 3 rascals. took bus there. ah fat was being funny. he sat alone n tried to be sum bartop dancer which turned out to be bus-stop dancer.

he got piseed cos i said he looked lyk lard rubbing against e pole. den fatty came to meet us. and fat just cldnt stop wen on e way bk. danced non-stop on e train. not shy...

went to ps to buy clothes from this shop call lam pah zone. its actually I.P.Zone lar. fatty bought 3 tops n 1 jacket. 105 bucks but she din manage to get any bottoms as she exceeded her budget.

den bk home to wait for dad to go chalet. mum insist on fatty coming along wif us. went there to eat. crave for bbq chicken so much but only manage to eat 1. sigh...

den baby came over my hse to stay over. got low sugar suddenly so baby went dwn to make milo for mi. wonder y e milo she made taste extremely sweet n nice so i asked her and she told mi she cldnt find e small spoon she she used e big metal one. and she put 4 spoons of milo powder!!!! wow!!! thx baby... so sweet of u. :)

sun... went to wing tai warehse to buy fatty's bottoms. this time she bought all bottoms. 73 bucks. include my panty which i left wif uncle. -blush-

den bk hm to wait for mum den to granny's hse. delicious soup granny cooked. YUMMY!!!

bitch!

2006-01-20T10:17:00.000+08:00

wed... went to help steph wif her bday celebration. i swear she needs sum bbq training. her food is lyk so little n she's clueless abt everything.

went simei to get e stuff den tamp to get more. aftdat to simpang to buy fried rice n satay. at her palce... not enough things, go n get summore. argh!!!! rush here and there.

den e best part... her BEST fren came. i heard my named called out loudly. asking if im dere. for a moment i tot was mel. luckily i din said ' hi mel'.

e moment i saw her i just feel so weird. so min n i quickly went to buy more things. wen we were bk we just sit at e dinning area to prepare e stingray. having nothing to do, i asked steph to on e tv. and guess wat happened a few mins later!!!!!! her BEST fren stood rite in front n started to turn rds asking her frens if she's pretty???!!!! lyk wat e fuck she's trying to do????!!!! den in e noisy zooooooo, u cld hear her raising her voice saying 'y u hold my hands?' argh!!!! so attention seeking! my goodness!!!! luckily my seekee is not as bad as herrrr.... -nudge seek-

aft awhile, she started her another stunt. she asked min if she wans chicken n go over to sit wif her. wat e FUCK she's trying to do!!!! she's just trying to piss mi off!!! argh!!!!

well... wat more can i say abt sumone who changed. or maybe not changed but sumone i tot i knew well who turns out to be a .... sumone who acted drunk n went ard kissing guys in front of everybody's eys n accused of e guys kissing her. one r/s aft another den again accused others of not being nice. it's u alrite! all ur r/s will fail cos u r e problem! finding faults n all.

dun tell ppl i was e one who ditch k! it was U who asked mi to be ur gf n it was U who broke off so many times over all lil stuff n it was U who BEG mi to go bk to u! well, ur this naive bf will soon noe who u r at e end of everything.

2006-01-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

today i went toa payoh to walk ard. i swear its busier than orchard k. there so many ppl. did nothing much. went kembangan to eat. felt damn full. wanted to haf sum cheap thrills but not successful cos e lady asked if we want to haf our bill. sigh...

anyway... i really cant stand hypocritical ppl.

well... my best fren. dun feel left out cos i haf got a gf. i still love u too! -smiles-

2006-01-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

yest sumone made mi realise alot. i shall say thank you to u. i did an experiment yest. e first call i made to sumone. sumone used to be so close to mi. sharing all my pain n happiness. sumone i loved e most but now... only tok to each other for a purpose. wen she needed sumthing. i felt stupid for putting in all i had.

2nd call. to sumone who was close to mi too. she turned her back towards mi and claimed dat i was bad. wat else can i say. but im glad u made mi realised how impt my gf is to mi. thx.

for all i can say to my gf now is...

i do love u and sorry for being harsh to u.

2006-01-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

Santa's bday is over... felt as if a large proj had been submitted. just waiting for those ppl sharing her present to return mi e money. if not i will haf to eat bread in sch.

well... supposed she's happy to receive those failed sureprises. failed becos she's too kaypo ready. oops!

happy birthday fat santa!

2006-01-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

fat santa's bday is coming!!! HO HO HO!!!! n im so busy cos she's gg to sch soon n i got to prepare stuff for her bday. make mi busy only. fat ass!

fat santa shld be shot

2005-12-31T00:45:00.000+08:00

mrs fat santa elbowed mi today... n she still walked out on mi aft passing mi a closed packet of tissue expecting mi to clean my own bleeding lips. no present for her on bday. humph...

IM BACK!!!

2005-12-30T16:42:00.000+08:00

test test...

haha.... my blog's alive again!!! haha!!!! actually im e one dats dead which cause my blog to be too.

well, xmas grt. cos i've got a lovely watch. boxing day's grt too cos its darling's bday. went for sakae n ker n yixin fought. den rui cried cos she's too touched wif everything. esp e brownie ker baked.

tmr's nye! and i dunno wat shall i do. another 5 days is 6th mth while 9 more days is mrs fat santa's bday. wat can i get for her? -wonders-

2005-08-21T16:11:00.000+08:00

finally get to blog aft so long. lyk 2 mths???? all thanks to my lousy computer n laptop. oh and specially thanks to my dumb cousins who spoilt my modem. so busy wif projects... yellow ribbon ceremony... exams r coming... lyk another 2 weeks? sigh... i wan to get everything over!!!

2005-06-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

went town wif kerrui, yingxi, n chong. wanted to go starbucks but full hse so went to this lousy ah mei kaya toast. suck lar! e bread sucked, e my tea was fine but e rest was shit. so thick n refused to gif us water. asked us to shut up summore. but was becos we played zhong ji mi ma too loudly lar. chong n i were e winners. so honoured to taste soya sauce, pepper, e ah mei milk tea, bread wif kaya n butter. oh wen i was my turn things went better. wif kerrie's n chong's saliva. YUCKS!

n kerrie went ard zzzaaaapppping ppl wif her spongebob on jellyfish. so cute. well... all this went on fine.

but i feel shit now. was bathing n i dunno wat to do. just let e water ran. hope it cld wash all ache away. i vent my anger on everyone. i just cldnt think well. i dunno wat is wrong. im sufferring. i hate this now. pls... i beg u. bring me away from everything...i hate everything ard mi. i hate everyone. i hate myself. im sorry everyone.

i dun need any attention. i dun need any care. i dun need any love. i dun need anything. y do all of u still wanna bother abt mi. u haf got a bf now. n u haf got sumone else now. n u haf got a gf. all of u got over mi den y still bother. FUCK!!!! i hate all this shit. i hate it so much. PISS OFF PLS!!!!!!!!!

i wanna cry...i really wan to. i wish it helps.

2005-06-28T01:17:00.000+08:00

put urself in a third party's shoes den maybe u can get a clearer pic.but suppose it doesnt matter anymore.think abt it wif a honest hrt n mind. haf i done wrong in evenrything? or sumone contributed? im in e wrong for not managing my time but haf u done ur part in understanding? nothing else will save e thing. u chose to let it go. not mi. it had always been u who wan to let it go. i had nv wanted it till e very last time i just gave up. dats y i din wanna go bk.u urself knows wat happened but u chose to put it to ur own advantage.

who was e one who always got pissed over small stuff n initiate a time out?
who was e one always begging for u to come bk thou nothing big happened?
who kept quiet even thou she felt mentally abused?
who tried so hard to reach ur expectation even thou there's so much faliure?
maybe all this were actually shit to u. it had nv been enuff for u despite all e effort.

if we were to compare e scolding den maybe i wld haf already got over u long ago.

perhaps it really proves dat im rite abt ur ego... i can say no more for my reaction was dat way cos i care. i dunno how u wan mi to react. u used to keep telling mi abt him n wish i reacted but i din. n wen i reacted u were pissed. n im totally disappointed. i shld not haf been honest to u abt my past for u revealed it publicly. there's no maturity in dat... now i've learnt. nv put so much trust for ppl turns out to be diff n words turns out to be lies...

wats wif all e words wen u were interested in him all along even wen we were tog. wats wif all e love u claimed wen u cld get it over so fast. well... but its a gd thing thou. if u really regreted, there's nothing much to be done. cos i dare say u expected too much from mi thou u always claimed u dun.

2005-06-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

was on e fone last nite wif shirley till late. den in e morning sum fellow called just becos she cant find sumone to acc her for e mng sale n she wans mi to buy her a jacket. who can she be other den dat tiffany hendricks lar. dat silly ger. always wan mi to be her atm.

anyway met ding dong n followed her to sum stupid gathering. in e end we even need to take a lorry there k. wah seh! den go there n watch dong dong chiang. haha... den we left quickly to bugis. bought 2 tees for ding dong cos she just look dirty in her own's lar. haha...

had sumptious dinner for only 53 bucks wen we had 6 ppl ard. all thx to my darling lar. thx kim. cant resist ur sexy legs. u r HOT lar!

well...along of shit went thru my mind.im confused. sum ppl made u think they just simply lyk u so much. but in a nick of time, they actually took interest in others. making mi feel lyk a fool thinking so much.all r the same... maybe im e naive one.

i still think abt...u.

2005-06-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

went ag hm today. den went pub wif them during their time out. den i dunno wat went wrong den i had pms. think i was really pissed wif them smoking lar.

anyway yest met ding dong in town. went bugis wif her to find jane. wah bugis really got alot of hooligans eh. scary.

k lar. im dead beat.

again...

2005-06-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

bad day again... first thing dat happened today. my sweetie yixin wrote on my cig box. spelled my name wrongly summore. Cherly! ARgh! and wat lek lek jie jie. drew stars summore. and e best thing is. she wrote cos she wanted to try out e ink of her lousy free pen. AAAAHHHH!!!!!!! haha... nvm lar. but i still luv her. sorry i shouted so loudly. got shock lar. haha...

k den 2nd thing. i just barely let e stupid ah beng move first cos we were both blking each others' way n he scolded mi chee bye loudly. den we just stared at each other. ARGH!!!!

den e third thing. i wore my new adidas tee to sch and my file hooked my shirt den e thread came off. wah!!!! spoilt already!!!! argh!!!!

n i just realise yest my finger was whacked by e ball n now it hurts. angry day!!!!

oh yest played captains' ball for ag in e joo chiat match den won 2nd. congrats ag!!!

fuck!

2005-06-19T00:38:00.000+08:00

i hate ppl using vulgarities on mi. wats e fuck n chee bye thing? i hate it n i hate u. on a fathers' day summore. all i did was a little late all becos i went to llok for present. better den u dun even noe abt it. no one said anything but all u wan to do is just to scold mi n boast to mi abt ur vulgarity vocab.

wat gg aust n study wif u?! so u can practise ur bloody vulgar vocab on mi? im damn piss! n now u can tok to mi nicely online. i dunno if i really hate u or i love u so much dats y i took ur words to hrt. i wish u noe how i felt.

and im damn pissed dat i felt lyk a fool. i hate wat i heard last nite.

k complaint done... well. just got bk from japan. nothing much. basically just eat slp see, eat slp see. k lazy to blog. i hate today.

AG funfair...

2005-06-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

Yest was AG home funfair.hopefully we can raise 100 000 bucks. it went on well. sold abt 400 worth of tix. smiles... thanks to ppl who came. ppl who bought e tix. thx so much.

e nite before e fair i stayed over wif chuan, nic n gavis. they're so poor thing. got to slp on e stage e whole nite to guard e speakers. haha...

well, e gers there r rather fun loving. they gathered in gps, tok loudly to attract attention, gossipping. but i was quite afraid initially cos i dunno wat they're toking abt. there's even this ger asked mi not to tok so i'll be more manly. haha...

played water gun war wif rui yest. fun! eat n tok. watch my pretty cindial dance. so cute lar. haha... love her so much.

hmmm... gg bk on thurs to see cindial n e gers den pass lynn money for tix. fri will be flying off n i've not submit leave form n finish my proj. shall rush soon. take care peeps.

town

2005-06-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

haf been gg to town lyk practically everyday. bought darius a green guess shirt. hope he lyks it. maybe i can wear it too. haha...

well, sat is e carnival n so many ppl not buying from mi. sigh... from e funds are enuff for e learning centre. n yr 3 sux. so much n no gd frens. all r dead in mkting.

tired now... ciaos. oh hope green hair is no longer angry.

2005-05-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

i do miss e happy time... there are so much to say but i dunno how to. i dun think u wan to noe anymore. i did keep all e things in mi becos i feel dat im being petty n u might not understand understand. all i haf to say is u r not e only one crying n being upset. im hurt... truely.

2005-05-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

i miss philippines... i miss e life there...

anyway hi becks... catch up soon ya.

2005-05-23T13:12:00.000+08:00

finally back... so much to do. got to distribute e mangoes away before they become ripe. bought a few shirts n a pair of square cut jeans.YAY! well, sch starting tmr n i've not clear my room yet. im not mentally prepared for class. i dunno anyone except peiqi who got e same adopted philippino dad as me. haha... welll got to end her. philippines is a heaven to mi... concepcion beach is e best!!!!!

red.....

2005-04-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

went sentosa today wif lu-anne today. im lyk a lobster now. damn burnt. but shiok. din see myself red for so long.

and while i was tanning in e sea, i was blowing bubbles lyk a fish. den lu-anne was lyk 'where's ur tail?' so i moved my legs as if im flapping my tail. den i felt my lips damn pain. i tot a stone cut my lips or sumting. NO! FUCK! its an insect bitting it. i swear its damn pain k. i touched and it crawled on my hand n into e sea. ARGH!!!! but honestly, it's quite cute lar. haha...

and i tot im not tann so i insisted on staying there longer. but now... im in pain.

anyway thx lu-anne. i noe u din wan to tann wif mi. but i noe u are nice. sorry for asking u to shut up. pls forgif mi for being careless.

camp...

2005-04-19T14:48:00.000+08:00

just came bk from camp. so tired but extremely fun. learned so so so much. really love to be wif e AG gers home gers. learned so much from them.

seeing them tmr. and im so bored. shall go pool or movie wif uncle later.

camp is so fun... look forward to e camp.

i hate the doc!!!!

2005-04-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

went doc today to get e vaccination to prevent infection from injury just in case i got injured in philippines.i swear e needle is damn long. i had nv got jabbed by such a long needle before. its lyk 6 times longer den e one i jab wif everyday. it looked as if it's gonna penetrate my arm. my goodness! meanwhile lu-anne oso doing her medical check-up. dat ger just cant pee and had to drink so much water. great! aftdat she pee so many times.

den went tm to watch eye 10. whose idea? of cos her's. n wat? she covered her eyes wenever e ghost gonna appear. waste money. oops! den aftdat we went home.

my cousins are so cute. cos sun we went out wif lu-anne. 3 boys n us. so cute. brought them to picnic. den darren so clever. kicked e ball towards lu n e drinks splashed onto her. wow! haha... den went dinner den arcade. had so much much. all e expenses at arcade was paid by lu. wen gg home i scolded e boys cos they really went overboard.

just now, darius told mi dat he bought sumting for lu cos she spent so much. sumtimes i just feel lyk kissing him. love him to bits.

shopping...

2005-04-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

went shopping today... morning wif lu-anne den aftnoon wif kerrie n chong. this stupid chong so late. suppose to meet her to go chinatown but she woke up at 145. idiot! luckily got kerrie. and stupid kerrie. pls dun put ur name as miss koh wen u leave comments cos i tot its my teacher lar. scare mi. learn wat shit. not even shortlisted lar. as for ella. not my lobang mah. kerrie's. so ask from her k.

anyway, bought panty for lulu n ger boxer for myself. e boxer looks lyk cocolatte's design. damn nice. den lulu claimed dat i din buy anything much for her. only a watch n jacket. still wan to go home calculate wat she bought for mi den deduct e watch n jacket i bought n send e receipt to my hse k. see lar this kind of person. haha... nah. i noe she's jking.

but i felt bad. so i went ard to look for things to buy. wanted to buy this mango bag. very nice but kerrie said not very special n dun worth e money. yixin said im not working so dun spend lk dat. haiya. how?

saw star den he was bitching abt lionel. so i joined in a while. i swear dat bloody lionel is e bitchiest bitch on earth. think he damn stunny . wat fuck! my blood boils wenever i see or tok abt him.

oh den went home wif nik,justine, gillian, eunice, iris n my best fren sean. haha... den justine e petty ger just wan to pretend being angry wif mi just becos i disturb her being a philippino.

k gtg. anyway i hate my aunt n uncle. they r gg on holiday tmr n leave e 3 most irritating kids on earth wif mi. and guess wat. they dunwan to gif mi allowance. fuck! next time dun expect mi look aft them for u. asked so many questions n i explained. but still dun gif. den gif mi a pathetic 100 bucks. gg to eat grass lar.

whew!

2005-04-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

WHEW!!!!!!
Finally, exams r over. i swear i studied hard k. except for cma. i just slp all e way den go for paper. but miracally i cld do e paper. i think among all e cma students i slpt e most.

den i cant go out cos my shark eater brother had to go for accting paper n i got to help him. and i realised i forgot so much of it. i cant even help much. but he claims dat he cld get a c. haha....

yest went shopping wif chong, recovered baikah, and gucci wife. had so much fun. but din even buy a thing. cant find my brown sweater lar.

den today went shopping wif lu-anne n amy. i took pics wif lu-anne. so fun! and e pics r so nice.
anyway,i saw this green guess shirt. i simply love it so much. but she said its abit too small and i look gay. so she asked mi to think abt it den if really lyk it den come bk and buy. so i listened. aft walking ard den i went to e loo. and i decided to go bk to take a last look. and guess wat! its gone!!!!!!!!!

i felt so sad ok. so so so sad. and i just feel so low spirited. sigh... den we went to see adidas jacket. oso dun haf bown ones. my life sux. i seem to be unable to get wat i wan. den i went to inject in e fitting room. and suddenly sumone threw a guess paper in. wah seh! it my GUESS SHIRT!!!!! who can be so nice ? its none other dne lu-anne gan k! haha... thx!

tmr shall rot at home cos my mad aunt is mad obviously. scolding mi cos i went out lyk just twice. n i came home before 12 eh. she is insane!!!!!

sumbody tell mi wat to do... i just need to learn smoking and go for a 2 hr survey to gif comments on e cigarettes n i'll earn 60 bucks. easy money but all i haf to do now is to learn fagging. how? sumone pls tell mi.

and pls post ur comments in e comment bos quoted as YOU R E FIRST or GOSH! MORE. sumting lyk dat lar.

fuck!

2005-03-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat got into mi. im lyk fucking pissed wif everything anything....for no reason. fuck! i dunwan to haf party ready lar. fucking troublesome.

anyway was on e train den saw this gay couple. they r quite macho. damn cool. was hoping they will kiss. but damn!

my wishlist...

emporium armani watch

a pair of good jeans

shades

pool cue

zara stripe shirt

wallet

brown sweater(preferably adidas)

nice purple tshirt.

bag

and e fucking blog is pissing mi off now.

thank you darling...

2005-03-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

darling... thx for accompanying mi to hospital. and pls dun make fun of mi. im really scared of the eye photo machine. it makes mi blind temporary and it dun make mi feel gd.

anyway doctor said my tests results are excellent. lyk real wen i dun even take my sugar test. wen i took it at hm, my finger pain lyk shit cos dunno who adjusted my needle gear to lvl 5 which is e force. asshole!

watched unfortunate event. not bad. but i wonder y lu-anne cant get e story. haha... oh den e ice pack for my med melted lyk mad lar. haha...

k gg to bed. pubbing on sun anyone?

finally...

2005-03-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

my laptop has finally collasped. there are too much viruses staying there for so long. it just has to die now. shithead. oh dat suppose to be mi. rite lu-anne?

anyway... went museum yest. quite interesting actually. the culture of southeast asia. oh played wif amy's son. so cute. my goodness. but other idiots just got jealous of mi so they wanted to carry him too. den! he cried. and they just threw him back to mi. making it as if im e one causing him to cry. idiot.

aftdat went to eat fish and co wif kim, claryn and carol. ate swordfish, fish and chips and seafood platter for 2. YUM YUM! guess wat? we finished them. my goodness! think we can train carol to be lyk us. haha...

den went to look for the guess watch for lu-anne. so difficult to find. dammit! went to many places but just cant see any of it. finally, it's at paragon. almost gave up before dat. den i stood there for so long and no one serves mi. probably i haf e cheap face lar.

on e shuttle bus, was trying to think of a way to surprise her. took out the watch and put it in my pouch so can take it out easily for later use. wen i saw her i tok to her abt e watch and she said she dunwan it anymore. i was so upset k. tot i wasted my money. dammit!

but still... i took off her watch. as usual. she's irritated. haha... den i said i wanted to see. den i put on e new watch for her. was struggling to put it on actually while she was on e fone.. i knew she is gg to scream at mi aft she put down e fone. she turned ard and looked at e fone wif irritated face. haha.... cld see how surprised she was. haha... succeeded.

den alex came wif her bf. wat a chindian. not very good looking but alrite. shld be quite nice. poor yingxi. haha... den they created sum funny shit. haha... k shall end here.

darling... hope u really like it k. cos it really took mi quite awhile to find it.

sleepy...

2005-03-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

i hate my aunty. i swear! i came home early. im so sleepy and tired and i haf my fucking mense. i fell aslp on her bed and she fucking scream at mi cos i slp. she said i always wan to slp at 1 or 2am. she thinks i lyk arh. haf to do work wat. fuck lar. i hate her! now im so tired i cant even do my work. and if i were to slp at 10 den she gonna say sacarstic shit.

now she is screaming at my boys. mad women. but sumting funny was a policemen came. so for e moment i dunno y i had a silly tot. i was hoping he is her to arrest her. hahaha... but he asked us to do sum stupid survey.

anyway had been busy wif proj. stress wif stuffs. wats new? of cos is lu-anne lar! went to discuss wif her on her choice of sch. she seems to be lost. went down to tp. met san and she told yx dat she is shock to see mi and lu-anne tog. haha... k i gg to do work.

but im so slpy...

clueless...

2005-03-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

how?

why?

what?

when?

who?

only u haf e answer...

y?

2005-02-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

y? y lyk this again? i dun lyk. watched sum stupid show on kidney dialysis. was damn scared. i need u so much by my side. but i suppose i pissed u off again n dats y u r giving mi cold shoulder.

projs

2005-02-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

PROJECTS! PROJECTS! PROJECTS!

I HATE THEM!

nv enough...

2005-02-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

today is not a gd day. e first thing dat happened in e morning was being screamed at. almost got chased out of e hse. e key to my hse is being confiscated.

girl... i really did try. i gave in in all e replies. but i dunno wat pisses u off so much. its just mi. always so insensitive.

i can nv gif enough. i have no more chance left. u left once again. this is e last time u gg to leave becos... u will nv come back.

u broke e promise u made last nite. u said u will not leave over small fight. we din even fight today. i din even argue wif u. but i pissed u off. here... i broke my promise thousand and one times.

i noe i had used up all ur patience. i had taken up all e chances. i had wasted all ur effort.

i haf no more right to apologise wen i caused all this. i am in no position to dry ur tears. i haf no ability to heal ur broken hrt.

no amt of effort can make u come bk. no amt of sweet things can bring u away from ur pain. no amt of tears can wash away e memories u had left. but i wish i cld stop.

yes. im a cry baby. all my tears are just crocodile's tears. i made u leave and ask u bk wif my tears but i hurt u again.

u had enough. its only right dat u haf made this decision. u deserve sumone who is much more better den mi.

the key to my heart has left...once again.

im sorry... i cant be perfect.

bored...

2005-02-18T14:37:00.000+08:00

marilyn says she wans to be e guest blogger...

stop asking ppl to bitch about you! im damn bored all becos of u stoning beside mi---marilyn

dunno who is e one stoning in e lift today ya?---cheryl

anyway gg to mistique/chinablack tonite...

was drowning in proj but now feel much better. not becos all of them r done. e submission date r later.

oh dat day lu-anne so sweet. bought porridge for mi in e middle of e nite. she got steph to lure to mi go downstairs.haha... but i din wear bra lar. den i was wearing hairband summore. i got a shock out of my life wen lu-anne popped out of no where. hell... no one had ever see mi at my ugliest eh. wah... but nvm lar. got bak chok wat...haha...

gg to help uncle in his filming later. gg for chili crab tmr! yay!

migrain...

2005-02-16T13:12:00.000+08:00

din go to sch... head ache lyk mad. seems to haf puking marathon. 5 times k. for e moment i just feel lyk dying. i had difficuty slping. den kerrie call and told my aunt dat i got class at 11. stupid bai kah. nvm lar. thx anyway. feel lyk gg to sch but my head spins lyk fuck.

sumtimes i wish u cld understand. and i wish i cld understand too. i noe its unfair to u. but i cant help it. i haf to be honest to u. i dun wan u to go but i haf to becos this is wat u wan. i finally got u bk and u wan to go now. y does everything haf to surface wen things seems so fine? all i need is time but u wldnt gif mi.

in sorry dat i nv ever gif u e feeling dat u r being gone aft. i really have too much to do. maybe it seems to be an excuse but my mind is really full. and now u brought this up. im breaking down...

yes u said im selfish. its not all abt mi. dat is y i keep ur options open. and this seems wrong to u too. i've planned sum time ago on how to pop e question on this day but nv did i expect this day turns out to be e day i haf to see u go. im helpless...

i was badly hurt. but its u who brought mi up to stand on my own. im greatful... but the wound has not recover fully. r u willing to aid mi? if its yes i dun feel it. u kept saying u r uncertain. u even doubt mi. i felt pushed...

if u choose either all or nothing, im sorry u might haf to take nothing becos for now i am still unable to gif u all. i dun wan to lie. i can gif u all... but not now. i noe u dun wan to wait. and i dun wan u to waste ur time anymore.

im having e same feeling again. e feeling dat i fear. e fear dat makes mi shiver. i've lost all my fighting spirit. my heart no longer stands strong. its being defeated once again. i wish i could find sumone who can make mi feel protected in her arms. im weak...

i am sumting dat u can let go easily... and willingly. how do u wan mi to see myself being impt to u? i always hang on but u r e one always letting go. u r unwilling to take e challenge wif mi. u even regret coming bk to mi. i've shed too much tears...

AGAINST ALL ODDS

Whoa

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You're the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
When there's just an empty space
And you're comin' back to me is against all odds
And that's what I've got to face
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around to see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
There's just an empty spaceT
here's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now
'Cause I'll be standing here
And you comin' back to me
Is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta
Take
Hey yeah
Whoa
Take a look at me now
Mmmmh

off to sch...

happy vday!

2005-02-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VDAY!!!!

today i went to sch wif lots of flowers. gave them to all my buddies. den e stupid tanwenrui still can be upset cos this is e first time she receive flower and its frm mi. fuck lar. idiot!

den was doing proj. wah i damn pissed wif one of my gp mates. she arh! dunwan to say. anyway finally done 2 of my projs. left 2. oh tok to kohpohtee today. so scary. wah e worst lecturer on earth man.

went for briefing on e philippines trip. will be gg to gotak tingi first. arh dunno how to spell lar. den aft dat i got so scared cos i tot my bag went missing. looked for it den it was in e club hse. haha....

went sammie's place cos she wans to put her stuff and change. took so long. and changed in front of mi summore. den met chong at station to pass her e earrings and rose. felt so shy lar. dun even dare to tok to her.

k den went town to buy lu-anne's present. bought her e zara jacket. tot she will be happy but who noes she said she prefer to buy it herself. arh lar! and she's so poor thing. lost her fone today. den i msg her fone and scold e fella. haha...

lu-anne so sweet! she bought mi my shoes. e one in topman! yay! i love u!

I'll be there..

2005-02-13T15:48:00.000+08:00

I'LL BE THERE...

You and I must make a pact
We must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I’ll be there
I’ll reach out my hand to you,
I’ll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I’ll be there

Chorus:
And oh - I’ll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you
I’m so glad that I found you
I’ll be there with a love that’s strong
I’ll be your strength, I’ll keep holding on
Yes I will, yes I will
Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that’s all I’m after
Whenever you need me, I’ll be there
I’ll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love I respect you
Just call my name and I’ll be there

(chorus)
If you should ever find someone new
I know he’d better be good to you’
cos if he doesn’t, I’ll be there
Don’t you know, baby, yeah yeah
I’ll be there, I’ll be there, just call my name, I’ll be there
(just look over your shoulders, honey - ooh)
I’ll be there, I’ll be there, whenever you need me, I’ll be there
Don’t you know, baby, yeah yeah
I’ll be there, I’ll be there, just call my name, I’ll be there...

happy new yr!!!

2005-02-11T14:54:00.000+08:00

this new yr sucks! cos so little ang bao money n still need to do proj. wat kind of new yr is this?
my bro is a bitch! asked mi wat panty im gg to wear and said i do not need a bra but stickers! FUCK!

im e hottest butch lar! in spag, oversize bra, short skirt n heels... haha...

my legs r botak!!!!!!!!

one wild nite!

2005-02-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

this is e best club outing! we got a total of 30 ppl. damn cool rite?! actually shld haf more but sum cldnt make it den steph oso cant cos nigel and fren underage. dne they went mistique in e end. heard dat its quite fun dere.

anway dat nite was so so so fun. danced all nite. wif wen rui( e idiot who kept pulling up ppl's shirt), dat bai kah( e idiot who kept pulling my shirt up), sammie( e birthday ger), chelsea(e cute ger) n so many ppl lar. but got this particular ger was damn funny. e way she dance was fucking hilarious lar. wah lao! nv ever see before. even her fren was laughing wif mi

oh i got shock wen i saw a aunty standing beside mi. haha.. and she is in our clique. my goodness.

e best thing of e nite was--- ben got kicked out of e club! haha... cos this fucker who cant drink was damn fucking drunk. and he kept scolding mi all e vulgarities in e world.

oh n i did sum shit i was on e table n was afraid dat e candle burn mi so i decided to blow it out. den e bloody wax all went into my eyes. fuck! was in pain!

n got this ger climbed up e cubicle to see mi pee. fuck rite? nvm lar cos she's quite hot. its a long nite out so too much to write. lazy...

i hate tests!

2005-02-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

cma tmr n i have not study yet! i hate tests! cant really do all e papers. just pray i'll pass. anyway gg to club tmr! yay! wif e bai kah summore. haha... k shall go and study now.

i love my lu-anne...

everything i do i do it for u...

2005-01-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

Everything I Do I Do It For You

Look into my eyes - you will see

What you mean to me

Search your heart - search your soul

And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for

You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for

You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into my heart - you will find

There's nothin' there to hide

Take me as I am - take my life

I would give it all I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for

I can't help it there's nothin'

I want more Ya know it's true

Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love

And no other - could give more love

There's nowhere - unless you're there

All the time - all the way

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for

I can't help it there's nothin'

I want more I would fight for you - I'd lie for you

Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true

Everything I do - I do it for you

test!!!

2005-01-29T11:01:00.000+08:00

had been studying in grt world. alone. so gd ger rite? den now gg to study hrm. so irritating. i cant do e bloody ief. oh den dat bloody old butch so stupid. i was wearing a cap wen i went into e exam hall. i just sat down only den she said dat ger in e cap can u pls remove it? den wen i took it off she asked a ger rite? am i rite? so irritating! den i said YES! u r e same label wat. still need to ask. dun act innocent ok old butch. but i think she din hear it leh. haiya!

lu-anne.... dun always disturb mi at e bus-stop. ok?!

sick...

2005-01-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

im sick!!!! im drown in my brain juice!!! anyway i had fun in fitting room... hor lu-anne? haha... k got to cont to study tmr. did do much today. i wan to eat bak chok!!!!!!

sigh...

2005-01-23T15:09:00.000+08:00

yest was not really a very gd day. went to sch for open hse. kerrie is such a ma fun bai kah. got to help her up and dwn e stairs n buses. btu nvm lar. who ask mi to love her. she must be e most fortunate bai kah in e world k. got rui, ella n mi to look aft her. oh sum stupid ass can still ask her if its real. r u BLIND?!

aftdat went to grt world to see skirt. tried several tops and skirts. den steph, rui,ella, e stupid bai kah n even my lu-anne laughed at mi. so irritating. but i noe lar. ugly wat. den i tell u steph is e most irritaing asshole ever. she took this long skirt and told mi is a tube dress. i tell u and im fucking stupid to believe her. i even tried it k. but due to my airport chest it still drop off my chest. den they laughed at mi secretly k. i hate all of them eh. luckily i din come out wif it. saw fann. kerrie n e rest oso think she is pretty wat. not mi only wat. so dun always say she is my darling ok lu-anne gan? haha...

went jumbo for dinner wif steph and her family. cut her cake at her place den met lu-anne to go hm.

gg to granny's place for chicken rice later. yay!

lu-anne, u r really impt to mi. dun think dat u r not cos u really r. im sorry for wat i haf said. i really dun mean it. forgif mi k? love...

fun...

2005-01-21T15:46:00.000+08:00

just got back from grt world. accompanied swthrt to work. den find steph to go eat at mac. was looking ard for new yr. den this ger dunno hwo to spell her name but i think is fann, i think she's quite pretty n friendly. always smiling. but dunno y steph dun lyk her lar. as i was looking ard den she asked mi if im shopping den i say trying to buy sumting. so she asked who im buying for dne i said myself. she's lyk dun believe k. new yr wat. i got to wear skirt lar. den dunno wat steph told lu-anne say we lyk each other. i only think she's pretty wat. nonsense lar.

anyway, yest went town to meet steph and swthrt. before dat waited for e ger call si si. she made mi wait so long arh den only say hi and went off. appear so unfriendly summore. still dare to ask mi if she gave mi a bad impression. wat do u think? i waited for an hr ok! but meanwhile tok to rui and e rest lar. rui said i threw her aside. eh i din k? u r still impt to mi. but next time u shit no need to sms mi k. haha...

went ps to meet e zara ladies. both of them wear similarly. dunno wat they r up to lar. haha... aftdat walked to town. den while buying toriQ i dunno y tt lu-anne bit steph for wat and steph teared. so bad rite. haiyo!

later sat outside paragon to wait for arnel. saw steph's sis n her gang members. den steph so funny. she ask how cheryl im wearing her jeans. dne i hopped onto her to sit on her so cant see. den her sis so rude k. i swear. she just said hi steph. act as if she doesnt noe mi. den wat for still call mi to kpo dat nite.

den went zara. saw this purple polo tee wif pink stripes. i realy think its not bad leh. but lu-anne said ok lar. its not fantastic. she and her nonsense lar. haha... im gg to buy dat shirt wen i got my allowance. aft awhile arnel said steph's sis is there. den as usual she scold steph for taking her jeans. dat steph oso arh lyk dun dare to say her. anyway she always take steph's things oso wat. n i bought e jeans. so y she cannot use. selfish ppl r just lyk dat. n steph n i just remembered dat she got money to shop but no money to return mi. so irritating rite?!!

oh i think arnel is so cute. i dunno wat is wrong dat i lyk him cos lu-anne and steph think dat its so funny. but arnel used a word dat is so wrong. lu-anne asked him if he lyks mi and he said ya i fantasize abt her. my goodness! arnel i think e word means otherwise in philippines hor? haha...

and lu-anne gan! i din always irritate u ok?!!! stop saying im irritating. at least im not pure... haha...

stressful...

2005-01-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

today was rather stressful. cldnt wake up in e morning for class cos last nite slpt late. den now i cannot tok to my bang bang aft 12.

anyway i got a shock this morning. e bloody sch called my aunt to tell her i skipped sch. fuck rite?! i only skipped dat class once eh. it was lyk 2 weeks ago. wth! den she suddenly asked mi if always club. den i said no lar. my frens. den she asked:u eh? haha.... i said e biggest lie ever. i said oh once only. haha...

den went to yx's hse to wait for her. she can really slp n dun wake up eh. k i oso lar. haha... den we took cab to sch. thx yx! den i did proj and i ate so much. haiyo! ate tronky! so nice and ate our library's famous hotdog bread.

saw kim in e library. she ate even more. wah seh. she ate 2 hotdog bread, 1 big pack of lays and 2 cups of bubble tea. she's a pig man! den she was so sleepy she slpt. so i gave her a kiss den she woke up. haha...

aftdat i went off wif yx to cityhall den i met my bang bang to go home tog. suddenly uncle called saying he got chestpain and felt giddy. wanted to go bk to pick him dne he said no need. luckily he's fine now. k shall do work now.

i dun wan to refund... haha... hannar! not bang bang lar. tt lu-anne. ok? happy? haha...

la la la

2005-01-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

TANYINGXI!!!! thx for putting this pic arh. cant u put sumting better?haha... nvm lar. eh! this TANYINGXI n TANWENRUI arh! i swear this 2 AH TANs r dumb! haha... say wta i got no strenght to piggybag TAN WENRUI! nonsense k! i did it today!

took train wif lu-anne in e morning. she was gg to work den im late for sch. but happened to be ard e same time so we met up. she damn poor thing. had full shift for 2 days. den was quite late for proj. fish was dman pissed. haiya felt so bad. shall buy her sumting.

anyway had fun in sch but dat mr wu arh kept saying mi. for a moment i was blur k. he asked mi if i understand wat he explained so i said ya. den guess wat? he said to e whole class dat since cheryl understands den everybody shld understand too. den i looked at him and ask is dat a compliment?( as if i dunno) den he still can say ya. i will slap him i tell u. he repeated the compliment summore k. wah!

oh my kerrie so poor thing. she's baikah den got to walk up and down e hill to go lectures. but she damn funny cos her armpit pain. haha...

den during e lect i fell aslp. was damn tired. i sat directly in front of koh poh tee summore. aftdat vincent drove kim and mi to station. he is really such a sweet guy k.

k shall go off. sch tmr! oh my bang bang is home. haha...

hahaha...

2005-01-16T12:52:00.000+08:00

TAN YINGXI!!!! haha... thx for helping mi wif e links arh. at least its not so pathetic now. eh dun write woohoo, u r boohoo. haha....

yest went to tampines to look for justine, bernie and e small little nicolette. den other sacians lyk eunice, iris, mich etc came to ask mi donate. so scary eh. den they just stood there and tok and tok and tok. i damn scared eh so i faster ask them to go. den we went to watch phantom of the opera at century and sqaure( according to nic). bang bang told mi its nice den it turns out dat its so draggy. nice lar but too much singing. and some idiot told mi its 3 hrs. e very same idiot who told nicolette. den nicolette den felt so cheated by her. haha...

den in e cinema, this 'kite' boy so funny. actually his name is khai but it sounds lyk kite wen he told mi. he said yes! so loudly wen e christine's sleeves droop down her shoulder. my goodness! haha... den nic kept saying wat khai n i are buddy. haha... watever lar. he is cute wat. but he took damn damn damn long in e loo. n e stupid justine wanted to ask mi wta am i doing in e gers' toilet dne she realise oh its correct. haha...

they went to eat at tm multifood mall. haha... den they said they wan to eat ba chor mee and i offered to buy. so i asked them where. den nic kept pointing to e beef noodles and said there. u nv come here before is it. wth! its beef noodles k! haha...

den i receive this msg from my dearest tiong seekee! she said this exactly- it really shocked me wen i saw a familiar face passed by. i thought it was a walking broccoli. blah blah... just becos i was wearing green. she thinks dat i dun suit green. ya lar i suit brown lar. if im not wrong u told mi dat rite? haha... eh and wat my cauliflower? dun be lame k. u r a bitchy bitch! not beachy bitch! haha...

aft dat lu-anne gan bang bang(according to yingxi) came to meet mi. dne we went to eat at bk. den we tok. aft dat we went home. eh its not safe for wat u wore yest thou u look really nice. anyway gtg. gg to duman for bazzar.

You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me

Yingxi rocks, Woohoo!

2005-01-16T02:41:00.000+08:00

Yay! Look, nice and good. You owe me alot cheryl lek wen xin. See your beautiful picture there? give me a nice one and i will change it for you, right now just bear with that alright. HAHA. Cheers!

maybe it's just not meant to be...

2005-01-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

i dun blame u... u had already been very nice to mi. i had nv been angry wif u n im glad u had been honest. but i dun lyk u to do wat u dun wan to just becos u wan mi to be happy. thou it is only a week, i felt u dote on mi so much. u noe wat? i felt so loved.

u dun wan to wait and in e end u lost mi. i dun wan it to happen oso. u noe i already feel dat i haf lost sumting. but i noe i cannot be unfair to u. i feel dat i haf so much to say. but e thoughts r not organised. i cant express them properly. i just dun understand y u told mi dat u dun wan to fall deeper and noe dat i no longer lyk u n now u say its better off to be frens. u asked mi if i already see myself wif u den i said not yet. dats becos it's too fast. den now i saw a very dim light and u blew it off but i noe its wif ur gd intention.

pls dun ever haf doubts in urself. u r really a nice person. u dun haf to reach my expectations.i lyk u for who u r. im not saying we must be tog. but u r not even giving it a chance wen u urself lyk mi too. u r a human so i cannot expect u to be wat i wan u to be. i lyk u for wat u r. and of cos we need time to noe each other. one day u might just find dat im not dat gd oso.

i noe my past is shit dat's y i told u. i wan to be honest to u becos mi myself hate liars. u r rite dat we shld sort out our feelings. but now it seems to mi dat u r even more uncertain den mi. i noe wat u trying to tell mi. u dun haf to feel bad. and im really greatful dat u care so much for mi and how i feel. thx for e shirt and everything u had given mi. i really do appreciate them.

im fine wif ur decision. but i just dunno wat r e tears for....

let mi love u...

2005-01-14T14:25:00.000+08:00

Artist : Mario Song : Let Me Love You
Lyrics:
Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....

Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Mmmm...Yeah....

Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah
[Verse 1:]
Baby I just don't get it

Do you enjoy being hurt?

I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt

You don't believe his stories

You know that they're all lies

Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why
If I was ya man (baby you)

Never worry bout (what I do)

I'd be coming home (back to you)

Every night, doin' you right

You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)

Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)

Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)
[Chorus:]
You should let me love you

Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need

Baby good love and protection

Make me your selection

Show you the way love's supposed to be

Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you
[Verse 2:]
Listen

Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts

You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame

Don't even know what you're worth

Everywhere you go they stop and stare

Cause you're bad and it shows

From your head to your toes,

Out of control, baby you know
If I was ya man (baby you)

Never worry bout (what I do)

I'd be coming home (back to you)

Every night doin' you right

You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)

Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)

Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)
[Chorus:]
You should let me love you

Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need

Ooh Baby good love and protection

Make me your selection

Show you the way love's supposed to be

Baby you should let me....
[Bridge:]
You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)

We should be together girl (baby)

With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!

So can we make this thing ours?
[Chorus:]
You should let me love you

Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need

Baby good love and protection

Make me your selection

Show you the way love's supposed to be

Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you
[repeat til it ends (about 3 times)]
[Mario (talking):]Let me love you that's all you need baby

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEEKEE!!!!

2005-01-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEEKEE!!!!!
haha... today is her special day. she is 18!!!!! thou she might not see this but nvm lar. and if u happen to see this den i wan to tell u dat i wan u to be my fren. always. u noe im so happy dat u finally tok to mi. i hope u will forgive all e shit i haf done and let us be real gd frens ok?i swear this time i wont turn ur life upside down. anyway i wan to thank u for everything.

Purest of Pain - Son By FourSorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
and so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.
Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you,
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
But there's something, baby you need to know.
That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying. I have to see you,
It's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasy. The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.
Cariño mio, my world's become so empty. The days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.
Quisiera decirte que hoy estoy de maravilla
que no me ha afectado lo de tu partida
pero con un dedo no se tapa el sol.
Estoy muriendo, muriendo por verte. Agonizando, muy lento y muy fuerte.
Vida, devuelveme mis fantasias, mis ganas de vivir la vida, devuelveme el aire.
Cariño mio, sin tin yo me siento vacio, las tardes son un laberinto, las noches
me saben, a puro dolor.
Vida, give me back my fantasy. The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.
Cariño mio, my world's become so empty. The days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it.
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
And so I surrendered just to hear your voice.

i dun mean anything but i hope u still remember u this.

liar!

2005-01-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

u r just lying all e while. i just wan to noe e truth. but u r always lying. fuck! i really fucking hate it. u told mi its always him calling.fuck! stop lying lar. its so obvious dat u gg bk to him. watever u said, it means no shit. 'i will nv go bk to my ex.' ' u're e only one whom i actually thought that if something would ever happen i will consider a patch.u're e only one whom i actually thought like tt. quite a shock to myself also.' does this seems familar? wat bullshit u r toking abt? i will nv ever believe wat u said! wat an ass to forget my bday. this is e real u. so different from wat i tot u were.lies, lies, lies, and lies. just look who is lying and who is e flirt. oh i forgot who's e hypocrite?

whoa oh oh

ooh hooh

no no no

See I dont, know why,

I liked you so much

I gave you all of my trust

I told you, I loved you now It's all down the drain,

You put me through pain

I wanna let you know that i feel

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw them out,

Fuck all the kisses they didnt mean jack

Fuck you, you Hoe i dont want you back!

You thought that you could keep this Shit from me,

Ya burnt Bitch, i heard the story,

Ya played me,

Ya even gave him head now

Ya askin for me back ya,

It's just another act look elsewhere cuz ya done with me 2x

Fuck what i said it dont mean Shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw them out

Fuck all the kisses they didnt mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe i dont want you back

Ya questioned did I care you,

could ask anyone, I even said ya were my great one,

Now its over but i do admit im sad,

it hurts real bad i cant sweat that cause i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean Shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw them out

Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe i dont want you back

oh oh oh oh

uh hun yeah

oh oh oh oh

uh hun yeah

oh oh oh oh

uh hun yeah

oh oh oh oh

uh hun yeah

over and over...

2005-01-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

NELLY (f/ Tim McGraw) LYRICS Over And Over

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause it's all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it

NoooI can't wait to see you

Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes

That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes

And it's a shame that we got to spend our time

Being mad about the same things

Over and over again

About the same things

Over and over again

OhhBut I think she's leaving

Ooh man she's leaving

I don't know what else to do

(I can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again yeah

And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it

NoooI remember the day you left

I remember the last breath you took right in front of me

When you said that u would leave

I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything

But I see clearly now

And this choice I made keep playing in my head

Over and over again

Playing my head

Over and over again

OhhI think she's leaving

Ooh man she's leaving

I don't know what else to do

(I can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it I can't shake it

Nooo

(Now that I've realizes that I'm going down

From all this pain you've put me through

Everytime I close my eyes I lock it down

I can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it I can't shake it

Nooo

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it I can't shake it

Nooo

Over and Over again

Cause it's all in my head

i'll stand by you...

2005-01-09T17:04:00.000+08:00

I'LL STAND BY YOU

OH, WHY YOU LOOK SO SAD?

TEARS ARE IN YOUR EYES

COME ON AND COME TO ME NOW

DON'T BE ASHAMED TO CRY

LET ME SEE YOU THROUGH

'CAUSE I'VE SEEN THE DARK SIDE TOO

WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

NOTHING YOU CONFESS COULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS
I'LL STAND BY YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT

YOU I'LL STAND BY YOU
SO IF YOU'RE MAD, GET MAD

DON'T HOLD IT ALL INSIDE

COME ON AND TALK TO ME NOW

HEY, WHAT YOU GOT TO HIDE?

I GET ANGRY TOO

WELL I'M A LOT LIKE YOU

WHEN YOU'RE STANDING AT THE CROSSROADS

AND DON'T KNOW WHICH PATH TO CHOOSE

LET ME COME ALONG

'CAUSE EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG
I'LL STAND BY YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR

AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU
AND WHEN... WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU,

BABY YOU'RE FEELING ALL ALONE

YOU WON'T BE ON YOUR OWN
I'LL STAND BY YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU

TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR

AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU

slack...

2005-01-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

yest was charitable day. haha... went to mercy relief wif luanne and steph to help out. before dat we saw this old man trying to flag for cab. but no cab seems to stop for him. den luanne and mi wen tto help him. i was rather surprise dat luanne's so helpful. not dat she looks bad lar but just dat dun haf e helpful look not lyk dat step who just stood aside and watch. den e old man asked for 5 bucks frm us den luanne gave. aft dat we got him a cab but e cabby cant take him and initiate to bring him to e nearest police station. so i said dunwan he will be afraid. den e old man asked for another 5 bucks n i said we just gave it to u. guess wat? he replied dat he got no money for dinner. haha... wat a clever old man. so i gave him another 5 bucks n got a cab for him.

oh i think we damn smart cos we just walk and walk den we got to e place without noeing where e hell it is n wat e place is called.we din even walk to e wrong place. smart rite? haha... we helped to fold clothes n had so much fun. basically we just laughed at all e lame stuff luanne n stpeh did. ok lar. i did abit too. haha... think we were there for 3 hrs? dunno lar den we went simpang to eat.

today, went sch and do wat? of cos play. haha... i end class at 1 den i eat n eat n eat den tok and tok and tok till 3. den tok n eat again till 4. den i went town wif kerrie n yi xin to meet min. played pool. quite fun to play wif them. den min and i wen to grt world to find luanne and steph. dat's lyk my first time to grt world. haha...

oh its quite empty in zara cos lots of things are being grabbed. oh i went to steph and said excuse me den she was lyk ya? and she paused for awhile n whacked mi hard on my back. haha.. but she so cute. den she asked mi to look at this ger. quite pretty wat but dunno wat she did dat steph hates her lyk shit. anyway went to fitting room to find luanne. dunno y but just find her so cute. she lyk so nice and sweet. she lyk always sayang my stomach wen she knows dat i injected already. but arh dunno y she kept chasing us out. wat say bye ready must go. wat service. haha...

went to eat mac wif min. she so troublesome. changed her order here and dere cos she wans e bloody useless neopet. haha... she sure gonna kill mi wne she sees this. haha... dun care. aftdat we went cocoa tree to buy choc. i bought 2 butterfiles choc n 2 bummer bees for luanne and steph den min bought dunno wat for her frens. but... luanne dunwan e choc cos she doesnt lyk any of them. nvm cos min stuffed 1 bee into her pocket. den steph took e rest. she looked so happy. haha... den min tried a speg den we went hm.

on e bus, min scolded mi cos she said i gan cheong. idiot! den in e train we were so bored so we recorded wat we did today. haha...

if u r unhappy wif wat i wrote den dun read. i dun see anything wrong cos i wrote wat i feel and think n e truth. its just dat u dunwan to show e truth to e rest. if ur frens lyk to kpo kpo n tell u or watsoever den gd for u. its up to u to get e shit out of it. but do u dare to say wat i wrote is false?

wat a day...

2005-01-04T15:14:00.000+08:00

went sch. as usual. nothing much today. sat behind sammie. den dunno y she suddenly scratched my leg. wah lao! she sumhow turned mi on eh. den she realised she scratched e wrong person. she wanted to scratch kerrie's leg lar. haha... den we saw a seat beside rui. so we wondering she reserved it for who. den i msged her but bloody shit. got no reception. sum idiot kept saying singtel better. oh pls! starhub got reception k! anyway i called her fone den it beep so loudly. den kerrie called oso. it beep again. den carol confiscated rui's fone. haiya dne we cannot msg each other. ass! oops! luckily carol cant see this.

aft lect went town. slacked at nydc wif my lover. den we just tok away. and msging rui using chinese. wah seh. damn tough. haha... den i felt sum paper in my mouth. e drink got sum paper in it. but a small one so nvm lar. den again another small piece. and wen i finished it, a big piece one in it. den i told e ger and they void it. they wanted to gif mi another cup but i declined. i will get damn fat if i finish another cup.

nothing much... dats all for today. i kept thinking abt her wen i already lyk see her almost everyday. k chaos.

bored...

2005-01-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

irritating! irritating! u r nothing but a *****!

resolution for 2005
- forget HER
- ignore HER
- not be so good to HER
- get better grades
- get license n drive my ger ard
- save lots of money
- master pool
- improve my health

was toking to aaron. he made mi realise sum stuff. i shldnt be a slave anymore...

hidden...

2005-01-02T17:12:00.000+08:00

yest skipped sch just to help her buy e strawberries cos i noe she will be damn lazy to walk. i noe im being dumb again. den aftdat i went hy's hse. i din help but just ate. haha... lazy lar. at her hse we just eat and eat and eat. den dat bloody kerrie came late for lyk dunno how many hrs.

wen she came we just slack ard den sang karaoke. haha... bored lar. e best thing was we sang hokkien songs. we only noe sum of the chorus so we sounded lyk shit. but we had fun thou. haha... oh den so coincidently dat we sang this song and its abt a heartless person. haha... immediately kerrie n mi laughed lyk shit cos we were thinking abt e same person. haha...

den kerrie and i realised dat only e 2 of us were having fun. cos they dun understand wat we singing. haha... so we played mahjong. i tell u arh dat lion forever tai ko. she said she dunno how to play dai di den she won. she said she dunno how to play mahjong and she won too. cheater eh. n kerrie is so dumb. she cycled all e way to 7-11 n called to tell mi she forgot her wallet. i tot she's e only dumb one. but marilyn n jess did e same thing aftwards. haiyo! haha...

wanted to play indian poker so hy took out e martel. den she went into her room. we waited so long tot she was changing or wat. den jess was telling mi dat hy might be slping. n i tot who e hell wld slp wen e guests r ard. so we went into her room n she was really slping. wat a bum! haha... but we noe she damn tired lar. prepared e stuff and all.

was so bored so i called my princess to tok. while i was toking i saw a ger looked damn hot. she was wearing this skirt dats damn short and a white shirt. as she was approaching. guess wat! she's hy's mum! my goodness. i swear she is e hottest mum i've ever seen. wow!

den we wen to park to tok and all. we told each other on e experiences wif ghost or according to lion, its dream. den we tok so much till we so tired and everyone fell aslp in e park. den dunno who woke mi up den we went bk to hy's hse to slp. sorry ppl. i snored again. haha... pai seh lar!

den early in e morning my aunt kept calling and calling. but i noe lar. im being irresponsible. din tell her dat im not gg hm. den went hm bathed and played monopoly wif my boys. played till i felt aslp. haha...

den woke up at 2 to go temple. so holy. haha... aftdat we went parkway to eat steamboat. aunt kept helping mi to cook e food. i felt so bad. she is e one who always shower mi wif care n love selflessly. but i always disappoint her.. sumtimes i even dun bother abt her. but i always care for sumone who dun bother abt mi. i suppose i noe wat i shld do...

wen i came hm, i played mahjong. haha... thou i suck at it, i taught my boys how to play. haha... anyhow lar. den we ate and played cluedo. haha... playing e whole day eh. wah lao. haha...

next time if u dun wish to meet mi or anything just say. dun haf to say see first or wat. u only make ppl wait. i bet u said u dunwan to meet mi wen he asked u. fucking make mi lyk a fool who fucking kept asking u. i bet u must had so much fun wif him rite? den today called mi just to ask mi abt e bloody photos. u will only call mi wen u need sumting. look who's e one dat always make use of ppl. den now u r out wif him. since u see him so often and all ask him to help u lar. ask him to buy u a digi cam den. i tot u told mi this-if now im wif patrick, i will get e cam if i wan. and u told mi this wen we were tog. gd den. he's coming bk to u now. he can play guitar for u. he can sing for u. and mi? i only noe how to serve u lyk a slave wat. now u dun need mi den just dump mi. ask him to help u. i dun wan to be stupid anymore.

bored...

2005-01-02T14:34:00.000+08:00

irriating! irritating! u r simply irritating!

sad...

2004-12-31T17:08:00.000+08:00

im so disappointed and upset... i just found out tmr is e last day of donation. sigh... i tot i cld buy e medication for e victims. i tot i cld ask alot of ppl to donate. but now... i can do nothing.

31st dec 2003 was 1 of e happiest day i ever had. 31st was suppose to be e anniversary. but now... she will be spending this day wif him this yr. kharma... wats goes round comes round.

irritating...

2004-12-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

this is damn fucking shit. y do ppl seems to piss mi off? last nite 1. this evening 1. my stupid maid fucking broke my medcine. they r suppose to last mi till march. fuck! i am gg to die soon without my med. she can dun even apologise. i just hate it wen ppl did sumting wrong and still think they r not in e wrong. anyway wenrui din come to sch today. she must be quite sick. of cos lar. always dun eat. caught in e rain. den go hospital. den go hm dun wash hair. haiya take care lar. k got to do my stuff... gg to see wat i can buy for e victims. ppl if any of u happens to read this pls donate k? in terms of food money or watever. doesnt matter. and star stop sing ur rubbish song to mi. i will only buy ur bloody vouchers at 80 bucks. e mkt is dropping...

u r my lek-shine my only lek-shine u make me hapy when skies are grey. u'll nv knw lek hw much i love u. so pls buy the damn vouchersss... sang by star!

ALL MY LIFE
I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than youI will never find another lover more precious than you, more precious than youGirl You are Close to me you're like my mother,Close to me you're like my father,Close to me you're like my sister,Close to me you're like my brotherYou are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing
Chorus
All my life I pray for someone like youI thank God that I, that I finally found youAll my life I pray for someone like youI hope that you feel the same way tooYes, I pray that you do, love me too
Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger,You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above,For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,I REALLY LOVE YOU!!!
*Chorus
You're all that I've ever known, your smile on your face, all I see is a glow,You turned my life around, You picked me up when I was down,You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,You picked me up when I was downYou're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,You picked me up when I was down & I hope that you feel the same way too,Yes I pray that you do love me too
*Chorus
All my life I pray for someone like you...

i hate this song...
i hate 31st...

yeah!

2004-12-30T16:34:00.000+08:00

uncle says i wrote too much. think i too luosoh ready. haha... k basically today i went to dat woman's hse cos suppose to do re-enactment for her cos she forever so last min. need to take pics for her sch wk. still must buy pineapple tarts for her summore. den in e end we din. den she went to bathe and i slp cos i ate e tarts den high sugar. oops! haha... and she's so irritating dat she jumped on e bed and gave mi a shock. den telling mi dat she only got 1 side of her contacts and she dun even noe which side is it. haiyo! how stupdi can it get. it really got mi laughing my ass off. haha...

den i haf to go and buy for her. so ma fun. and she can anyhow spell e brand summore wen she knew dat e name had changed to acuvue clear. wah lao. make mi paiseh only. so i nice bought them for her and she still can complain to beth behind my back dat i was slow. idiot!

den i had to postpone e date wif deorine to tmr. aftdat we went to rafflescity. she cld remember dat we went dere once and she got so angry wif mi over nothing and cos of her pms dat she din tok to mi for e whole day. and we din even go for e job training. nvm its e past. see which poor fellow suffer next time. haha... she sure gonna kill mi if she happen to see this. haha...

walked ard den i went to meet aunt. aunt so irritating. told her fone low batt still kept calling. den dun wan to reply my msges. late for half an hr summore. irritating. anyway uncle bought mi a fone. 7260. yeah! aha... k tired. gg ot slp. mites ppl!!! uncle lyk dat still long? haha...

confusion...

2004-12-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

i dunno y but i kept thinking abt 1 yr ago. they took those photos 1 yr ago on this day. and only did i noe abt it on e chinese new yr. nvm. its all over. she's not even mine now. forget it lar.

anyway today was ok. went sch so early. cldnt wake up but luckily my sexy kimmy called mi. but i still late lar. so went sch alone. in class i din even pay attention cos was msging kerrie dat siao ting tong. she's lyk forever not gg for biz law. i bet next time she will kena sued lyk mad. haha... den she told mi sharon coming. i was lyk wow. haha...

wen i went for biz law lect i saw yixin. she was lyk so poor thing. i cld see how sad she is but still put on a brave front. she spoke to mi abit den she sat wif dat john dason. i noe she din wan to sit wif mi cos she noes kerrie sitting wif mi. sat wif lion at first. den kimmy called to ask mi sit wif gucci wife cos she is upset again. haiya! i see her lyk dat i feel damn hrtpain leh. wenrui if u happens to see this pls pls pls cheer up. i wan see e happy wenrui again. i lyk to play wif u just lyk e past. now u seems to be diff. i noe u r stress but always remember. all of us r here for u. wen u cry, i will wipe e tears for u. oh dere is sumting i wont lyk to remind u--- see lar! last time i wan u den u dun wan! oops! haha... k lar i still love u lar!

anyway wen kerrie came and guess wat she told mi? she said sharon coming to our sch to haf lunch. madness! i will eat in fear man. imagine we were tog den yixin walk past. scary! so we decided to go town to play pool den ask hy along. ask her to go town she say go hotel do wat. mad arh! haha... during break we just tok and tok away. den yixin came out. can u believe she cld just tok to mi without even look at kerrie wen kerrie was just standing beside mi. we just watched as she went off.

i dunno y but i kept thinking she might commit suicide. haha... ok lar im dumb. but u nv noe wat. so i decided to call her and ask again if she was fine. den she broke dwn. sigh... i dunno wat i cld do. i said i go and look for her but she cut my line.. guess she was too upset. den we played wif kimmy hung's new camera fone. den i wore her green girly mng sweater. i looked damn gay. haha.... but lyk nice leh. haha... i love being gay. haha... den we went into lect hall to watch sum stupid video abt law which was acted but sum ugly butch. yucks. haha...

den we went library cos dat stupid kimmy hung need to find bk. so kerrie and i just look at e cook bk. haha... think we gg to be sum nice gf who cook for our gf. haha... oh luckily we din go cafe cos yixin was dere. den kerrie so irriatating. she kept wanting to see whose e guy yixin was wif. u dunwan to gif ppl status still bother. haha... oh den kerrie's fren sent a song. so cute. it goes lyk this-
ping ping ball, ping pong ball hanging on e wall
1 big big, 1 small small
hanging on e wall. HEY!
repeat.
small one 20cents, big one 50cents
if u wan e big big one, oso 50cents. HEY!
-sing to e tune of jingle bell-

went canteen to look for my gucci wife to take lunch. wanted to sing e song for her but she busy. haiya! den we waited for 2 bloody hrs for her and for e supposely hot sharon to come. oh my! i dun see anything hot in her. kerrie's taste lyk diff frm mi leh. wah lao. den i was lyk blur blur and smile den dat kerrie make mi lyk shake her hand. i oso dunno y i lyk gong gong shy shy. den she went to our sch's library. mad arh. yixin was dere! dunno lar. den we went town in a big grp. got sera, yingxi, kimmy hung, fad, baby yanqi, kerrie, deva n mi. we will just laugh non stop wenever we r tog. lame abt all sorts of nonsense. rumours abt e co-op ger so kerrie wanted to see. so funny. i met her once. quite pretty. wen yanqi said she wans to buy fruit juice den everybody went in cos wan to see e ger. haha... den yanqi said i wan this one eh- referring to e juice. den we said we oso lyk-referring to e ger. haha... den we were lyk saying eh everyday must come co-op. haha... k lar mostly i said lar. den e most funny thing was kerrie purposely bang herself onto e door to show dat she is so attractive. haha... i think we made it too obvious. haha...

at e bus stop we sang e song to rui. den we change e lyrics from ping pong ball to neh neh pok. dunno whose idea oso. kerrie's is 50 cents cos her's big. den kim's 20 cents den they say mine 5 cent. so small meh? ass! den they kept singing till i spat my water towards yingxi's dierection. luckily she siam fast eh. all thx to e frequent bball training rite yx? haha... den in e bus i oso cant remember wat we tok and laugh abt. crazy lar. haha... oh got this ard 15 yr old ger boarded e bus den mi and yx just looked at her- cos she quite pretty lar. haha... i think she got shock den she faster sit dwn. think we scare her. den yingxi oso thinks dat wenrui is oso not a bad choice. but too bad she dun lyk mi lar. haha... gucci wife u happy now rite? flirty panty! haha... oh sorry lar. din mean to look at ur ass. haha... but u urself wan to show mi e panty wat. haha no lar. ur panty too nice wat. haha...

wen in town we had to walk in e rain cos they slpt den missed e stop. so got to walk to lucky. yingxi went park mall to meet pris den mi, kerrie n kim went to play pool. e rest went to watch meet e fockers. wah! wen wif kim and kerrie arh. i tell u! they can be damn porno. kerrie can just say out loud dat her nipples erect cos cold n e kimmy hung said her mei mei can be seen later wen wet. they even did e standing form of fucking action to show their mei mei sneezing. so paiseh.

played pool awhile. think today i played quite well. or maybe im just lucky. lost once i think. den won 4 times. cant remember. den e pool hall uncle so cute. he's lyk so happy and he told mi next mth he's birthday and ask mi to buy him present. haha... dne i oso dunno how cum i only need to pay 3.90 wen 1 hr is 4 bucks n we played ard 1 1/2 hrs. haha... dunno lar.

aftdat wen to meet kim's sis. she quite pretty eh. but dunno wat happen to kim. haha... no lar. kim oso pretty lar. haha... aftdat i went hm cos my stupid cousin msged mi to say got big feast. and in e end i went hm n saw only chicken and kambeng soup. haiya... k gg to so wk. din do my tutorials for 3 weeks. i haven even buy notes n txtbks yet. haha... wat a slacker man! k chao.

so tired...

2004-12-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

thx princess... i wont complain so dun scold mi. haha... anyway merry xmas to u too... k basically on xmas eve i was still rushing for e xmas shopping. went to sch for lesson. obviously i din listen cos i was so tired. slept for 3 hrs only e previous nite cos sum idiot made mi so angry till i cant slp. den aft sch i went to bugis wif sexy kimmy and claryn to eat dim sum. so ex! den we lyk choose e food until so poor thing. haha... den i went hm to bathe and all. i was so tired. den i called beth to see if she wans to follow mi to town. den i went to her hse to pass her my shirt cos her sis, tiff told her dat must wear shirt. so dumb pls. den we went town to look for steph's and her mum's presents. bought them bags. hope they will lyk. haha... dne wen to look for tiff's cap. so bad. she made beth buy her such an ex present. den we went to look for boxers at far east. obviously e shops are closed. so we had no choice but rushed to fish and co at park mall to meet lion, jess and hy. we were lyk late for almost an hr. haha...

think beth felt shy. haha... cos she was quiet. cannot blame lar. den aftdat was deciding if we shld go club or go church. den e crazy jess got so excited abt gg church. den in e end we went olps. met steph before dat. she so poor thing. her feet are lyk killing her. haha... oh and she bloody made mi brought her clothes and all dne she din wear. shithead!

wen we reached e church, we had to stand outside cos no space. and LUCKILY i saw ben choo. dat fucker is so irritating. he bllody poked my stomach and keot calling mi butch. wah he acted as if he's lyk so close to mi. wat an ass! den e most funny thing was he said sumting lyk this.

ben: who is this?
mi: steph lar!
ben: oh steph. i cant recognise u. i think u lost weight arh.
ahahha... den steph and i just looked at each other. so lame... here comes e joke.
ben: u still angry wif mi arh?
steph: wat do u think?
ben: eh u noe i had not been slping since e day u angry wif mi. (steph is lyk angry wif him since 1 yr ago)
steph: how long haf u not been slping already?
hahaha... he is so brainless. my goodness! i cant stand him man.

anyway mi steph and beth just stood outside tok awhile till 2. haha... den e lion they all kept rushing mi. haiyo! met steph's mum and tiff den went to meet lion outside church. she was so fierce i swear. this was e first time man. wah! den we wen tsimpang played a while den to tiff's hse.

we played and tok. e lion and jess asked mi to tell story den i haven really started they slept. ass! so hy and i tok abit den slp. 20 mins later i woke up cos there was a commotion gg on. den i realised i snored so loudly dat they woke up. haha...so pai seh! haha... we were at e third floor den they cld hear mi wen they went 2nd floor. my goodness! haha... den we slept till 10.

went hm to make e strawberry fondue. was so tired but i think she still lyk to eat so make lar. i noe lar. im dumb. den i was so irritated cos granny kept nagging. i noe she meant well cos she noes i don use my golden fingers to do things but still. haiyo! anyway e choc was so ugly. ahah... but hoep they taste as nice. den went to see fone wif uncle cos he wanted to buy mi 1. but no stock. damn! den wen to buy beth and tiff more present. cos so little. haiya! i purposely buy sumting she wont be so happy to haf. so dumb rite. i dun wan to be bad to her but i dun wan to make her feel im still nice. how? wah i just feel lyk killing myself. i nice to her den im lyk so stupid. i bad to her den i haf to force myself. so irritating.

anyway she had a high fever on xmas. she always fell sick on e wrong day. dunno wats wrong wif her oso. dat time was e chalet i booked den this time xmas. i went over to her hse dne i can dun even ask abt her. i noe she is sick but i just pretend i dun care. i just went into beth's room to tok and den dwn to haf dinner. wanted to ask her how is she feeling. wanted to ask if she wans dinner. but i forced myself not to. y i force myself again? haiya! den her mum asked mi to aks her if she wans dinner dne i say i dunwan to ask. so bad rite? hai... den mel asked mi to follow her to her cousin's hse. den beth asked mi to follow her to her fren's hse. i think i rather go wif beth. den her mum asked mi to stay to take care of tiff and guess wat? i said dunwan. haiyo. u noe i so wanted to see her and tok to her. but i just pretend i dun care. wen i was out i just kept thinking if she is feeling better. if she feels bored.

wen we were hm, i went into her mum's room and saw her on e bed. my hrt felt so pain. but i still pretend dat i dun bother. i din ask if she is fine. aft dat i asked her mum wats her temperature. u noe wat?! 39.5. my goodness! wah! and i still din ask how she was feeling. until she called out to mi. her frail voice calling lek dunno y it just melt my hrt. she asked where is e present for her dne i said its under e tree. in my hrt i was thinking this- oh my u gonna hate e present. sigh... dat was wen i asked if she is fine. dne i noe she was hungry. so i went shell to find cereal wf beth. we wore xmas hat. so cute. haha... den we cant find so we decided to go cheers. den ask steph to meet us dere. along e way we sang xmas songs loudly. haha... den lu anne felt paiseh wen we sang. haha...

and cheers oso dun haf e cereal so we went hm. den i made glucose water for her. as usual she just gave mi black face n reluctant to drink. haiya. den i just went dwnstairs to join steph and beth. we ate drank and took pics. we opened up e pics and had quite abit of fun. haha... aft clearing we went to wash up and slp.

b4 slping steph tok so much. dunno wat she was saying oso but i just felt aslp. haha... as usual i snored so loudly dat they cant really slp. haha... den went hm on boxing day. eat and slp again.

at nite just went to airport to pick aunt. she was affected by e tidal wave. poor thing. she had to run dwn e 2000 over steps of stairs. haha...

today, im so tired. din even listen during e international economics. was falling aslp. so paiseh. sammie saw i was dozing away. den she left half way asking kerrie to teach her. haha i wan to teach her lar so i listened for e rest of e lect. haha...

aft sch i went to bugis wif chio chio and sherry. i was looking e skirt she liked. but still dun haf e size. i no i dun haf to do it. but haiya... ok im just being too dumb. haiya but she dun lyk my present. y i so bad? ass...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY GUCCI WIFE!
GUCCI HUSBAND LOVES YOU!!!

2004-12-25T15:50:00.000+08:00

i was obviously too lazy,
IM SORRY OLD MAN, IM IN YOUR BLOG AGAIN.

but HAH, i dont care.

whees, YOU OWE ME DINNER,
my 15 carat diamond ring LEH.
i dont owe you anything.

MUAHAHA.

merry xmas by the way(:
il do you a comment box when im free(:

and il punch you if you dare complain about
this template again.

OH YAH , my blog pwd is walking on broken glass
GO TAG LAH OLD MAN,
don so stingy leh.

LOVE,
MAINE.

i am so dead...

2004-12-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i haf to thank my pretty PRINCESS for the template. thou its not dat gd but still...i lyk lar. haha... eh if u happens to read this pls help mi make comment box, tag board, and all other stuff dat u noe. haha... oh i forgot. i haf to say this. GERMAINE IS THE BEST!!!! eh since wen i owe u present wen u dun let old man haf princess? u owe mi dinner. haha...

anyway, had been busy wif xmas shopping. din buy much but i swear i am gonna get them by tmr. i noe i will get my playboy stuffs. cos all my sweeties bought them. but wen can i get my brown sweater? my brown adidas shoes? my playboy money clip? my esprit ring? my big buckle belt? oh and wen can i get her? oh my! i better stop thinking abt it. thou she is so hot. ok to mi lar. and other ppl oso. den tok to her for e first time today. wah she will just melt anyone wif her voice. haha... but my gucci wife sure gonna kill mi. haha...i can nv believe my ears wen she say i prefer booboo. kerrie and i was lyk wat e hell is booboo. den she say er butch. wah... and e kerrie can just say wah u got chance. in fornt of her summore. oh my goodness! haha... basically everyday is a fun day. looking at her and her and another her. haha... den play wif kerrie, yixin and wenrui and so many others. but haf to work hard already.

k i went town to meet aunty stephie today. and guess wat we did? i accompany her hm. oh before dat we went simei to buy stuff den went to dat arron hse to help him wrap hamper. he is so impatient and rude. my goodness.

k den now im hm. gg to eat dinner now.

i am trying so hard...
so hard to claim...
to claim out...
out of the hole....
the hole dat i had fallen in....
fallen into u...
u r e one...
e one who broke the hrt...
the hrt dat loved u...
so now...
now how...
how am i suppose to...
suppose to find...
find e hrt...
e hrt dat can...
love u again...

fuck lar...

2004-12-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

this is a fucking shit! u fucking lied to her so much and crap up so much shit. still think u r rite. and fucking punch her. call urself a man. made use of mi so much and still can say u dun wan to tok to mi cos i told her watever u say. if u din do anything wrong y bother? u can fucking tell tiff watever fuck head i said cos at least i din crap up shit. u r a fucking bastard. wah im damn pissed. and her sisters can lyk dun bother. still lyk joke abt it. wtaever fuck lar. not my problem oso.

2004-12-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

whee , hellohello.
im not blogging for this woman who owns this blog.
IM BLOGGING FOR MYSELF.

old man , please say GERMAINE IS THE BEST.
you know , you are happily outside with your friends.
whilst im warming my chair and doing a template for you.
you better be grateful.
although i know this template looks damn funny,
all thanks to your playboy rabbit pic. TSK.

but anyhows , i chin chai made this for you.
you owe me one plus my christmas present (: (:
i owe you nothing :D

HAH, now il go do my own thing.
ps ; old man , youre damn heartless please!

LOVE ,
GERMAINE TAYLOR (:

SHOPPING DAY!!!!!

2004-12-17T15:47:00.000+08:00

YEAH! today is happy day. but i wasted money on cab again. cldnt wake up. cos last nite i chatted till 1230. suppose to slp at 11. anyway, tot i wld be mark late but luckily dat lydia is late too so haha... den i tell u. human comm is damn boring and dumb. shldnt haf choose dat man. tot i cld learn how to communicate better wif 'HER' but now i think wat for? y am i always so dumb? chose social psychology oso. all becos i tot cld understand HER better or wat. but now i really think i did everything for SHIT. all along i was just wasting my time and everything. really everything. boss is really rite man. its so shallow to be wif sumone becos she is nice.

anyway shall not think abt it. i shall blog abt my happy day. aft my classes went to canteen to meet sera den saw sweetie yixin. she asked to xchange no. wah kerrie is so gonna kill mi. haha... anyway she herself say gif mi wat. haha... eh but seriously i think she is damn nice and sweet. her temper is damn gd and all. wah... nv meet anyone lyk dat b4. kerrie better treasure man if not im gonna take her away. oops! haha... k i shall wait to meet sharon. haha... oh i dunno its mi or e gers in sch. there seems to be lots of attractive gers in campus. weird...

...met yx, sera, hy, lion, jess, sarah and joan to go town. we tok so much man. but fun lar... went to eat at scotts. i think e bao dere lyk use gold eh. so ex. den aft eating went to play this fortune telling thing. u noe put ur hand into e old man statue's mouth or wat lar. oh before i play hy played. den her sex lyk quite low. i think only 3 stars. den she bloody say my sex sure very high. i was lyk wateva lar. wait and see. so i played and wat e hell! mine was 6 stars k. wah lao eh! haha... den they kept laughing at mi. k shall write wat it stated.

you tend to use ur considerable acumen to ur own advantage.
you dun lyk others to rush u.
you sumtimes feel dissatisfied wif everything.
u tend to put ppl u love on a pedestal n naturally u dun expect them ever to step dwn.
you keep making mistakes which can leopardize ur future.
you find it difficult to apply urself to sumting constructive n u rapidly lose interest in wat u r doing.
max=9 stars n i got
life=7 stars
love=4 stars
luck= 3 stars
health= 5 stars
sex= 6 stars
i think cos of e sex den i've got gd health n long life. hahahha....

anyway den we walked ard far east. dat stupid gucci wife din meet mi. dunno where e hell she went to. we went 37 degrees den saw this shirt which is so so so ben. but in e end we din buy cos i realise its quite common. see bitch! we think abt u k! u ugly curly bitch! haha... k lar yest u were handsome. k den went lips at far east to see wat we cld get for ppl. hy showed mi this playboy boxers. oh my gosh! i simply love it man. but GOT NO SIZE!!!!!
wah XL! do u think i got such a big ass?!!!! den e ger kept asking mi to buy. haha... but its really so nice. maybe i go back, tmr cos they say tmr stock might come. however we bought 2 boxers. hy 1 den i took 1. shall gif it away for xmas. oh meanwhile sera n hy played wif sunglasses. they so cute! haha... den yx joined in. so cute. she looked so funny wen she wore e pinky specs. haha... we had so much fun dere. haha... yx bought a plain white shirt n sera bought a playboy necklace for mi! haha... yeah! im so happy! den i ask sera to gif it to mi on fri den im suppose to act surprise and happy. haha.. so lame! haha... actually at first i wanted to buy things frm dere cos they haf playboy plastic bags. haha... we din buy alot so they gave us e smaller one. den i asked if can haf e big one. wah den e uncle so nice. gave both. haha... so happy. haha... den we walked ard. went topman to see if e shoe is still dere. its dere but! no size!!!!
wah... den i haf to think abt wat i wan again. haha... so we went to topshop and saw lots of playboy festive cards. i swear they are damn nice. even sera lyk them. but they r 5 bucks each. and 30 diff nice types. can u imagine if i buy all of them? 150 BUCKS!!!! if i haf all of them den i swear i will paste them all over my room. sigh... but i noe i cant get them.
den sera went surf babe to see if her skirty roxy bag but... it gone too!!!! so we went to meet lion and e rest. on e way we saw baby. den she ran to hug mi and say her guess bag is gone. she looked as if she was gg to cry. oh my! think haf to get sumting else for her ready. den we walked and walked den met claryn and went hm.

haf to think of wat to get for so many ppl. haiya! k shopping again tmr... den bbq. wah very tired, shall go slp.

VIRGIN!

2004-12-16T13:35:00.000+08:00

HEY! This is my virgin blog. haha... anyway abby dun wan to help mi. haha... k lar i admit lar. im just been lazy. but i haf got tons of wk to do. wat to do. im a busy person. anyway nowadays in sch is just simply so fun. always laughing and playing wif kerrie, my gucci wife, sexy kimmy,sera, hui ying and lots lots lots of ppl. just listen during lects and play and play and play. but carol and jia zhen dun lyk my gucci wife sit wif mi cos we kept toking. haha... oh den today jia zhen burpped so loudly den kim said 'jia zhen y u burp so loudly?' den alot of ppl laughed. den claryn helped jia zhen. she said kim y u fart so loudly. and they went on wif their lame conversation. haha... hope everyday can be lyk this fun! it had been so long since i really forget abt e pain and just play. i just wish i can faster go thru it. k shall not say anything anymore. oh i am gg to help out for e open hse. jan 22nd 1230-330. haha... so helpful rite? haha... nah cos we can play! and im gg to wk. included dat fellow pick up kerrie's call. anyway justine is gg to be my pasir ris khaki! den now cannot ask her go simpang. must ask her go fisherman's village. haha... haiya but bet she is too lazy to move. she stays so near mi. RIVERINA! which is lyk just a few hundreds meters away. haha... k shall start my xmas shopping soon. i wan my adidas shoes! my brown sweater! my playboy stuffs! yeah! haha... k chaos. got to do wk.